title: SU HUI'S EYE IS SWOLLEN AND BLOOD RED ! MY RIGHT EYE IS BLOOD RED .
Okay great . My right eye has been like that since 2 days ago . Wait , no , 3 days . It doesn't hurt , neither is it itchy . I wouldn't even know its red if nobody were to tell me that . Felt damn blind today without contacts , so depended on Shermaine to survive for the day . Worse still , there's chem test today , and my face was 5 cm away from the paper . Yes my eyesight's that bad -.- Hmmm , if it doesn't get any better , shall wear specs tomorrow in case i get myself blind forever in one eye . Everyone that walked pass me today was like :" omg su hui what happened ! " I got that from Chelsea , Angelina , Shermaine , Li min , Vans , Beverly , Shanice , Kalisha , Gloria , Jillyn , Rachel , Deena , Serene , Chinese girl ( laura ) , Dorothy , Aisyah , Syahdina , Kimberley Claire , Gloria Sun , Gina , blah . Grr , Shanice even say it looks like fishballs that're bleeding . HAHA . POA TEST TOMORROW ! Luckily studied for it already . Hmm chem test after all was managable . Though i didn't really study for it ? 4 tests in a week . Sec 3 only . Good luck Su Hui for the rest of her st margs life . Esther : Ah see ? Get into trouble lah . Eh , if you were to skip home econs then not so bad lah , not core subjects . Sec 2 really depends what're you gonna study for the rest of your sec school life , so if you don't wanna get shity subjects combination , then must study lah . I know its a sad thing but still .. Getting into trouble is common , just that don't repeat the same mistakes again , or maybe if you really cannot stand the lesson that you must skip , then its your problem lah , i mean as a senior i can only tell you to get smarter and think of ways not to get caught ? HAHA , love you , jiayou for gym (: Goldish loves Esther . |
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title: Omg i swear today was an awesome friday . Nat chan never come , so we spent time to take pictures using May Si's photos (: Out with Dorothy and Jillyn for lunch after school today . Haven't been out with them for forever -.- Thanks Dory and Jillyn for hearing me out today , for the heart to heart talk . Tomorrow is ,
MASSIVE POA DRILLING DAY . |
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title: Sort of skipped gym today to go to macs to study POA with Adeline . I swear she really had trouble teaching me cause i don't seemed to get a thing again . Got really really fed up with it . I just threw the wrong answer at the wall . -.-
ADELINE : Eh , i can totally feel that i'm wasting your time can . You're suppose to study Bio while i dragged you to teach me and you're like losing your patience just that you don't want me to feel bad so you don't get angry . But really , thanks for teaching me , though i've no guarantees that i won't screw up again for the next test on monday . |
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title: Cousin's house sleepover Went over to cousin's house after dinner yesterday . Had a tiff with dad , which is a everytime thing . Set off to cousin's house . Went to sleep soon enough . Sometimes i've been thinking , why must there even have family matters ? What happens when parents quarrel ? The kids just sit there and not say a word ? How long would the quarrel last ? I thought it'll never end . Mom's off to Malacca for a day with her friends , 1st bro's at NUS hostel , 2nd bro's at the army . Dad's at home . Home is a place that you'll feel safe , but i don't . My dad's got a unique character that i don't think any dad has . I probably shouldn't be sharing such things up here , cause its rather personal , but i thought it doesn't matter any more . I used to not treasure my siblings being at home with me , but now i do . Because it feels as though some big part of you is missing when they're not home when you are . Mom has became a huge part of my life since i was born , though she can be really really annoying and irritating , she's still my mom , and i gotta respect her . She brought me up , taught me how to be a better person in life , taught me values , explain things to me whenever it doesn't work out , tried talking to me whenever she saw me troubled . But as many people know , when it reaches my age , parents just don't understand . Sometimes i thought it's not that parents don't understand , they do in fact , cause they been through our age . Its just that we have a mindset of our own that parents didn't go through the 'now' life of ours at that point of time . She loves to nag , all because i'm her daughter . If i were to think through , she's not mad to go around and nag at others . Now that such things happened in my family , what she taught me and my siblings is that we've to be united no matter what happens . "Jia He Wan Shi Xin" was what she said . And i thought she has a point there . Cause when such things happen , i realised that whatever i do , even the simplest things , i failed . An example is during gym training . A clubs throw that i've been training since the beginning of sec 2 til now , i can't even succeed in one . What's wrong ? No , nothing's wrong , my technique is correct , everything's fine . Just that i can't catch it . And everytime i throw it , it'll land on the floor with a loud bang instead of my hand . Thinking about school's reopening , i didn't look forward to school , neither do i look forward to go home , cause i felt damn alone and damn scared there . Not exactly scared , but more of a not safe there . My dad and i alone at home . And i'm not in good terms with him . Nobody's gonna be home any later , cause mom will only be home real late , probably 3 am ? I don't know , and i dare not think about it . Sometimes i wished that i'm not my dad's daughter , cause living under the same roof with him's absolutely not a good thing . Its like under fear everyday . I looked forward to weekends now , firstly is that its a small break from daily boring and torturous school routines , secondly is that they're more people at home , other than me and mom alone . Thinking about going home later just haunts me . So what do i do now ? Sit and pray that things get better ? Then i'll hope so .
Eh backsidesssss i'm suffering at home in case you two didn't know , come home please , for my sake , owe you two a big one .. |
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title: Family matters . Okay i swear i didn't had a good day after yesterday night . Family matters isn't a good thing , and it affects whatever i do . I don't seemed to be doing well for the simplest of the simplest things in gym today during training . And i gave everyone that faces me a black face , and when they talked to me nicely , i walked away . It wasn't just family matters alone , but also some other problems in school . And adding them up is like a mouse carrying an elephant that is a gazillion times the weight . And when i'm feeling terrible , its like the whole world owes me a living . Yeah , problems affect me really easily , and i can't get anything done . That's a stupid thing about Su Hui . After reaching home from gym , practiced piano , and it sucks . I can't seemed to play a piece without mistakes . And i've been playing that piece for months already . Its like its rotting there . Tomorrow will be the last gym training , and i've to squeeze in my ribbon routine as soon as possible .
I'm sorry Cassia , Sabrina , Melissa for today . Family matters taught me that changing one is very painful , why not change yourself ? |
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title: BOWLING ! :D Bowling day with people from 3/9 ! HAHA , it was damn fun . Shall describe the day . While i was gyming , received a message from Bella asking me if i wanna go bowling , so i thought i should go today and train more tomorrow . So i rushed home , and i seriously did , shower within 10 minutes ( goodness sake , that was damn fast for me , cause normally i take around 1/2 hour in the bathroom . ) , get changed up , and rushed to Marsiling station to train to Choa Chu Kang . Took 188 to some country club and i was damn scared that i'll get lost somewhere in singapore though i have my phone . -.- Oh well , after meeting Jillyn and Rachel , went in and met Gloria S. and Bella . Had cup noodles (: I swear Gloria was damn funny , and the way she held the ball before bowling was super dangerous , cause if she were to slip , people sitting behind at the seats will just die . And one of them is me . Thank God . HAHA , went Woodlands after that , had bubble tea , and then timezone :D Bella and i sat this stupid roller coaster thing that's not scary , but we ended up laughing , cause it made us giddy and there's this huge ball following us . HAHAHA , half way Bella answered her phone . That's random . Never mind . Let the pics do the talking :D         JILLYN : I know you're feeling terrible for some reason after speaking to your mom on the phone , but i just wanna let you know that us being in different class will not make a big difference , cause i'll still be there for you like how i've been during sec 2 life . You might not wanna tell me everything your mom said , i believed you would have somethings that you didn't wanna let me or us know , but i don't mind . I can tell that you did have fun today cause of the whole load of awesome buddies here together with you . Frankly speaking , meeting you backsides up really did cheer my boring and stress and tiring gym day up . I'm really really thankful for that . I may not be the best person to talk to , whatever i don't care , but you can totally depend on me and tell me anything . (: I wouldn't mind listening to all your crap , cause i believed that i've crappppeeeddd alot more than you do . So yeah , don't mind you shitting everything on me , i'll clear your ass up for you :D I love you , thanks for today . Sorry that i can't make it tomorrow . Have fun . :D This picture is save for you . Thank God its a fake gun . If not judging how many times i disturb you , i would have been dead like 10 years ago without knowing . HAHA .  I LOVE YOU. CHEER UP. CAUSE YOU KNOW YOUR SMILES ARE OUR SMILES . will never forget today . |
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title: Gym training and POA lesson Today was just terrible , had POA lesson early the morning which i'm almost late for but in the end i made it just on time . Lesson lasted for the whole of 4 freaking hours , i kept yawning , was freaking tired . After POA finally ended , Shermaine and i headed to macs . She received a call from her mom that her mom's already there , so she just left . Never mind , after buying mc flurry i head back to school to be an extra in Mrs Shum Social Studies' remedial . (: Frankly speaking , i did miss Mrs Shum , when we had all the fun in class disturbing her , laughing at whatever wrong pronoucation she made though it was lame . In fact i miss the whole of my sec 2 life . But just gotta move on to sec 3 and get heavier stress as we grow older . I swear SS lesson was a joke , we end up passing letters around , especially Jillyn the awesome buddy of mine . Somehow the paper balls just kept flying to and fro me . :D HAHAH , had a great time . But that only lasted in the morning . Gym was a complete different thing . I used to look forward to gym trainings though they're tough when i was in sec 1 and 2 . But i don't seemed to this year and i've totally no idea why . I'm not sure if i've lost interest in it or what , i don't care ? But i just don't feel as "home" as how i felt during sec 1 and 2 . Jin Hui left , was one big thing that i'm trying to get used to . There're still many other things , inside and outside school and gym . Talked to Adeline today about you , and what "advice" i got from her was to not talk to you again , but i kinda find it quite mean to do that , cause we've been close for quite a number of years and i don't wanna spoil the friendship that we've been spending time to build up throughout these many years . You might not know how i'm feeling right now , i don't intend to let you know any more things and neither am i gonna spoil the friendship , cause i can totally feel that you're looking down on me cause of whatever's happening and also , i believe God let us be together in the same class for 3 years for a reason . I don't like it , and i can assure you that if you were to push my limit any further , you can't blame me for not holding my words . I really can't stand it anymore , i always hope you would understand . I still love you .
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title: Not feeling right . Okay for some reason , things just don't feel right for me today . Shall just talk about today first . Bro came back from field camp , and then today early the morning , he called up this restaurant to book places for buffet . Crawl to Suntec by lunch time , food wasn't exactly very awesome , though i've always love Japanese food . Remembering how much i used to eat when it comes to Japanese Buffet , today was just not the amount that i used to eat . Its like i've no appetite to eat anything , but i'm trying to just eat whatever i can , so that i don't spoil the mood . Looking at how bro eats , i can tell that he didn't eat well during field camp . What i heard was that he've to survive on 3 packs ration for whole day , and judging his huge appetite , i think if you were to give him 6 its still not enough . He ate like he haven't been eating for years . Either you see him sitting down shoving a plateful down his throat , or he'll be taking his food , and everytime he comes back , his plate will be filled . And if you were to ask me how many times he went to and fro , i don't know and i don't wanna know , cause estimating the amount he eats is really scary . Went gran's house after buffet , some every sunday thing . Though its raining , i didn't really feel very comfortable , i was just really tired , and everytime i tried to sleep , i'll just wake up . Nobody disturbed me , though everytime there'll be cause of the 2 kiddos , but this time , i woke up automatically . Which is so not me , cause i myself know that as long as i get to sleep when i'm feeling really tired , its like trying to wake someone up when they're in coma . I need to hibernate at least 10 hours a day and i've no idea why . But when fun comes , i can totally forgo sleep . But this time i was just feeling very tired , but i can't sleep no matter how hard i tried . Soon its dinner time , and the average food tasted like shit to me . The spaghetti tasted like vomit . What's wrong with me today ? It just doesn't feel the way it is supposed to be . I thought its just me , and i really hope that . Tomorrow is another killer , cause i've POA lesson early the morning , and training from 12 to 6 . I can might as well camp at school and try to make school my home , but obviously i won't , cause school sucks these few days , though its march holidays . Thinking about the homework , my results , the heavy trainings , POA lessons though its just 2 days , family matters , bro being unwell , school problems ( small thing big thing whatever ) , blah . Sometimes i really wished that someone can just whack my head hard enough to make sure i don't wake up again until all the problems are solved ? But i can't say break can i ? I never had good sleep ever since i entered st margs . Whether i sleep at 8 and wake up at 5 , i feel as dead as i sleep at 4.59 and wake up at 5 . No difference .
Why do i look forward to something , but when that something finally comes after looking forward for it for 2 months , thinking through again , i realised i actually don't really look forward to it ? Labels: What's happening? Feeling wrong . |
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title: MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE HERE YAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay haven't been blogging for quite long , shall resume blogging though its quite sian . Its march holidays , but my results just spoil my mood . Never mind , shan't talk about that . Piano sucks today , cause i wasn't doing well i know . HEE , feeling damn excited for all the outings . Guess what . Training from monday to friday . Obviously i'm gonna skip some days right -.- Not mentioning about outings , i think just homework alone is enough to kill . Chemistry , maths , chinese , English . -.- You call this a holiday ? I think my ipod died on me . Hmm shall blog about MINI YOG DAY then . Took pictures , was awesome though quite expensive ? I swear me and Shermaine screamed til our throats sore . "GO TOLLEY!" and Shermaine blew the whistle til its filled with her saliva . Damn gross .
  A day at macs! 080310                        FUNERAL PICTURE OF BELLA (:     Labels: I miss sec 2 life. |
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title: Eh backside , cheer up . Time flies , its the weekends again . For the past 10 weeks or so . Life's been fine , quite a daily routine , of course there're ups and downs , but its just the way i handle things . We've one more week to March holidays is what i'm really happy and excited about , but i've one more thing to think about also . The A level results were out , and immediately i got the message after bro came home not even looking at me , left a piece of paper on the sideboard , and headed straight into his room and then shut the door . I saw the result slip and i didn't shoot him any more questions . I know he did work hard , from what i see . He sits at home like some buddha everytime when exams come , and whatsmore this time its As . I felt quite bad , cause i can't do anything to help him , not even comfort him , cause i'm youngest ! What do you expect your 5 year old sibling to tell you when you screw up for your tests/exams ? It works the same way . -.- Was supposed to go out for dinner and movie yesterday together with mom and bro , but we didn't in the end , cause it wouldn't be nice when he's having such a bad mood while we try to be some asshole and have fun . So i stayed home to study for the upcoming POA test on monday . Hope that i can score better this time . Hmm , might be staying home whole day , depends on whether bro has the mood to go out to eat later . Shall end here .
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title: I . LEFT . MY . IPOD . IN . SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hmm just got new playlist for the blog . (: No noisy music this time , the happy happy music (: HEEEHEEEE . Oh well , today's POA wasn't as bad as i thought , monday we've test , not a good thing . Mom's been nice to me these few days , so life's not bad . Went up to 3/7 before assembly today , Gina passed me a letter and Gloria struggled with her A maths graded assignment . I swear i would struggle a lot also if i were to take a maths cause i can totally not understand a single thing . There's this with this letter B that has a tail that sticks out like cursive . Geez never mind . Guess what , i intended to bring back Gina's story book to read today , but i left it in school TOGETHER WITH MY IPOD !!!!!!!!!! And those that know me knows that i'll die without my ipod on the bus . Imagine that , on the bus without any thing to entertain you for that hour ? NO FOR ME MAN . I'll keep whining and whining and complaining and grumbling . And no body can stand it so far . Even the most patient person on earth ? -.- Omg how am i gonna get to school tomorrow .. wish me luck .
Labels: i miss you ipod .. |
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title: Okay blog's quite dead . Shall revive it . School was boring as usual , especially when there's no gym . Was glad that i scored well enough for maths test to earn an outing and i thought i'm gonna fail it , judging the way i do my questions and how the answers turned out . I dare not even expect myself to hit 20 , not say any higher . Today's bio test was managable , and all thanks to my english , i just let 3 marks go away like that -.- Never mind its over . Sort of settled some problems with Li Min , after all working quite well . Went home with Tao Pang after school , haven't been going home with her for very long already .. Anyways ..
JILLYN : Ah ha ! Must get well soon okay ? Its been a long time ever since we meet up to have fun . Hope to go out during march holidays but heard that you're already fully booked so .. never mind then (: will have some other chances :D Love love ! Get well soon! :D See ya around at school ! |
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