Its just a few hours to 10.45 am tomorrow . Though i dare not think about this , but i just gotta face it . People might just think that its just army and i get to see bro every weekend , but they'll never understand how it feels like leading a life like mine . Daily routines can be really boring and stress . But no one would really understand how i feel everytime i had to drag my feet to and fro school . The journey itself is enough to kill me .

 To my dearest brother :

Hey backside , remember the times when we always run around at grandpa's house and mom would give us a you-two-will-get-it-from-me-once-you-all-reach-home look ? HAHA , thinking back , you were only 12 and i was 7 . Grandpa would chase us around the house with the cane threatening to cane us ( but obviously he wouldn't cause he loves us so much though he has uncountable grandchildrenssssss ) with a bunch of cousins ? Big bro would find all of us lame and he'll sit aside to watch the television while we'll produce a new nonsense everyweek . That day would never come again , and i missed that day , a lot . 'Cause we've all grown up ,  i can't possibly be running around with you again . It'll be so weird . Sending you off was not a very good thing , i expect ? None of us wants you to leave , not even mom , the usual "must-cane-you-cause-you're-most-of-the-time-naughty" . You might be with a bunch of buddies when we reach pasir ris tomorrow , but its fine (: As long as you smile before going in , we're all happy :D Well you might be too happy to even notice us there after mixing with people . Too busy , i guess ? but its really fine . You might not read this , or you might not even know about this , cause i can share everything with you except this . I don't want to see you upset cause i'm upset before going in . You told us that you looked forward to going into army for some reason cause you don't wanna stay at home , but a few days ago , you told me you would miss home and all the fun we all had together with big bro and how we tease dad on how fat / how many gazillion times my size . Haha , i might be a smallie at home for all i know , but i'm nice (: AND YOU KNOW THAT :D I know it wouldn't be the same after 2 years after you come out , an example was big bro . We hardly had any topic to talk about when he reached home during weekends , he was just so tired that he lay dead on the bed before even showering . I kinda expect that from you too , cause i know you're like him and me , we all hibernate like polar bears . I don't know ? But 9 hours of sleep is not enough for me , call me a pig . I'm going out on saturday with a large group of awesome buddies i had , but i'm not sure if it'll turn out to be good , cause its after you left :(  One more incident , i could still remember the time when i was 5 . Our family of 5 were crossing a road , and mom and dad were walking in front , you, me and big bro were walking behind . The car almost knocked me down cause as you know , big bro got the i don't give a shit attitude so he just told us to watch out for cars and he joined mom and dad . You ran together with him , leaving me behind , you ran , so i decided to follow ! And the car stopped inches away from me with a damn loud horn that almost make my ears bleed . You got scolded from mom after that . HAHA , sorray , you got me to take care of almost 24/7 of my childhood days (: But you need not now , cause i've grown up . Be glad , enjoy army if you can . I'll call you at night (: I wanna bed time storries :D HEH . no lah , please . Too tired to listen . I'm sorry for being such a screw up sister , who forever disappoint you with all the stupid stuffs that i do without using my brains . You can beg me to study for this minute and the next minute i'll just forget about everything . But one more thing that you can't escape is that you've got a sister like me . (: I'll miss you , see you chinese new year (: I'll try to stay normal as i see you off , but 99.99999 % i won't make it as you know .
Love you teddy bear , you must be back , cause i want you back .

Labels: i'll miss you like hell hell hell i swear .

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