Ah haha , 14's a bigger number than 13 (: Back to the point , you've made yourself an awesome flexi skinny junior by tolerating my nonsense during gym ( though i'm older but i've a 5 year old small brain , unlike your 13 year old ) . You've potential to do well , and i can see that you want your very best . As you're gonna be in ji ti for 2 years , i can see that you're trying hard to work together with teammates and also trying to fit into them . Ji ti isn't tough , but i thought the tough part would be the bonding of teammates . Different people have different point of views and for you being just a leader cannot control everybody's thinking . Yeah , i agree its not easy being some level head thingy , but from what i see is that you're managing it quite well , which is a good thing (: As what i've mention in your letter that i look forward to being teammates with you in future , indeed i do , but you've to get yourself out of xjt first and compuls . ( for goodness sake , the routine sucks , so judging your flexibility , you shouldn't be ending up there ) What i feel is that optional sucks too , but it'll definitely be cooler and you'll be very satisfied and contented with yourself when you can master your own routine right . And please , no one has your routine . Isn't that awesome ?! :D But lao shi , your future juniors , gymmates that are not as good as you , would put high hopes on you , and it'll definitely be stressful and you'll also feel bad when you can't do it well . I mean like everyone look upon you , and you disappoint them , that's what i'm feeling now and adding that you people kept saying my routine is cool , it just made me feel worse . Yeah , worse of all , you're alone by yourself if you forget your routine . You won't have teammates to cry with you when everyone gets emotional , you won't have any one to really understand what you've been through so far , you've to bear with everything by yourself . Optionals can be cool and fun , but you got to be independent and understand that nobody's gonna give a shit about you . The only thing that optional teammates can do is that they help you out with your moves and encourage you and nothing else . You got to learn to stand up on your own feet and be discipline enough to work hard for yourself . As usual , i'll be waiting for the day to come to compete together with you . (: Happy birthday .