Yes , wasn't sure if there's training , so just went to school and in the end there isn't . Met Adeline at the school hall and we decided to go macs to chill and have breakfast and then Dione called . She came to join us too (: We laughed and talked damn loudy . HAHAHAH . Omg , Dione can be lame , but i've no idea why whatever she say i'll just laugh til my stomach hurts . She's super funny . Actually she met up with us first , and then she said because of some stupid Mr Khairul , she gotta go back to school and ask him something , so me and Adeline carried on . Ordered food at macs .

 Adeline : Eh i think Dione's having a hard time eh . She went back for so long already still haven't come back .                                                                                                           

 Me : Er ya hor . ( laughs )

Dione suddenly came . 

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH , OMG its so damn funnnny ! Both of us started laughing really loudly and badly . Haha though its quite mean but the way she say it was really really omg i really can't help but to laugh . Dione sat down and munch on Adeline's food cause she can't finish them . Guess what . Dione chop the pancake into like a million pieces and apply it with some disgusting sweet sauce and she ate it . She ate like there's no tomorrow for the first few bites until i told her to chill . HAHAHAHAHA ! omg . And then the topic of conversation that we're sharing was : JERK ALERT ! HAHAHA . Ahem ahem . HE'S A TOTAL JERK . And Adeline claims that she wanna take the clubs and whack his head a million times but i thought by then he'll just be in coma forever or just die and kick his fucking dick . OMG ! HAHA . I swear i had a good time with them laughing my lungs out .

Went to cousins' house for lunch and everything . BLOATED I SWEAR . Can you imagine ? Just after breakfast at 10.30 to 11 was lunch at 1 ? Just a 2 hour difference and i had so much food for breakfast ? At home was buns with milk and then at macs was some fish burger meal . OMG I'M GROWING FAT . Yes i am .

Next thing . Training . Though i didn't wanna think about it but i guess i just have to face it , cause its a sooner or later thing , again . -.- I can't believe i even sort of threw tantrums at lao shi , but she didn't say anything , cause i think she probably know that i was really really tired and like worn out . My routine was total shit , but it wasn't so bad at the behind . Juniors and lao shis and gymmates my age put high hopes on my and look up to me . But i don't seemed to be working very hard for competition . In fact , frankly speaking , i've been slacking all these while . And i don't deserve to be looked up to . The person that's really working hard is Jin hui , my awesome teammate . She believes in working hard would get paid off and everything . And she would do her best in each and everything she'd do . But i'm so not like her . I would slack when we do drills and when we're stretching . Though i looked like i've been training so hard to be what i am today . Bullshit . I've always been slacking and lazing around and the person that's always encouraging me and helping me and pushing me from behind when we train for competition is Jin hui . See that ? I don't even give a damn about myself and i even need someone to care about my gym life on whether it's gonna rot soon . I'm just hopeless la ; As for flexibility , for me , it might be cause i'm born with it or whatever crap , cannot be train one . Cause the problem is i wasn't even really training for it . Not just that but everything . Well , what i feel is that i'm just weak . I need friends and people and seniors to support me whenever i'm training . Cause i'll just lose patience in myself when i don't get things right . And i'll just get really frustrated and then tada i give up . Yesterday when no one came , lao shi trained me like mad . But so far out of 10 throws , i caught none of them . That's how shit i am and how rusty i am without training for long . Dione told me she'll be coming but in the end she didn't , but i was waiting and hoping that a miracle somehow happen and she would suddenly appear to at least make me not so fed up , same goes to Adeline . But i waited to no avail . I gave up . Ding dong , 12 pm . Noon time and lunch time . I haven't even eaten anything except for the chicken wing i stold from Jin hui during break time . But i don't think i even deserved a break , so i didn't talk to lao shi about it . I continued training . " BYEBYE SUHUI ! " was what i heard from Jin Hui while i was training . Omg i just felt worse . Its like when you need your friends and gymmates badly , none of them appeared to help you and everything , but its the other way round , they leave you slowly . I felt like shit , seriously . "Bye." was what i said with a small wave to her in return . I whacked my chin and kissed the floor after doing 3 bridge down roll overs . It was terrible , and i didn't realise i was bleeding until i tasted something metalic and asked lao shi for permission to get ice to freeze the blood to prevent myself from dying . I bleed like free when i went to wash the would . The top part of lip was swollen while the lower part was sort of wounded . Grah , it hurts but i just didn't care about it. Went up to train again . Worse day of training ever , i swear .